Bonus episode. Are you ok?

WEBVTT100:00:01.080 --> 00:00:06.080Good windsday morning. It is Marchfirst. Thank you so much for joining200:00:06.160 --> 00:00:10.800us on this newst episode of currentlyunder construction. I am your host oldest300:00:10.839 --> 00:00:15.519thinking so much for joining us thismorning. This is a bonus episode,400:00:15.720 --> 00:00:19.199just a Little Land Yapp you're tothrow in your lap this morning. Hope500:00:19.239 --> 00:00:23.640everybody's going to have all wonderful andprosperous day to day. Praying, did600:00:23.719 --> 00:00:26.800you all that are still sleeping rightnow, that you're resting well, that700:00:26.960 --> 00:00:31.039God sends his angels Twin Camp Aroundyou all, and did you all asleep800:00:31.079 --> 00:00:34.640and well, and prayed to overyou today, you and your family,900:00:34.719 --> 00:00:38.679your loved ones, that you havea magnificent day today and all of you1000:00:38.799 --> 00:00:43.000endeavors and ever whatever you do onyour way to work, on the school1100:00:43.560 --> 00:00:47.200out and about home, rest ofme, Lecas, and whatever the case1200:00:47.280 --> 00:00:52.520may be. I know we justwe just had a part. We just1300:00:52.560 --> 00:00:58.960had a pot on yesterday, butI just felt compelled to record and get1400:00:59.000 --> 00:01:03.200another part out today, or thismorning, rather, just a bonus episode,1500:01:03.439 --> 00:01:08.680something that was stirring in my inmy spirit. So I couldn't hold1600:01:08.719 --> 00:01:14.519it. So I decided to jumpon a mic and just have a little1700:01:14.519 --> 00:01:19.519conversation with y'all. You know whatI mean, but I just want to1800:01:19.519 --> 00:01:26.200talk to you all about just youoverall. You know. Are you happy1900:01:26.239 --> 00:01:29.319with you? Are you happy withwhere you are in life? Are you2000:01:29.319 --> 00:01:32.239happy with the person that you thatyou are, that you look in the2100:01:32.280 --> 00:01:37.239mirror with every day? Are youhappy with your star player? Yes,2200:01:37.319 --> 00:01:41.280you'll start playing a person that youlook in the mirror every morning, each2300:01:41.359 --> 00:01:45.920and every day. That person islooking back at you. Now, some2400:01:46.000 --> 00:01:49.000of us aren't there, some ofus are still working on it, some2500:01:49.079 --> 00:01:55.920of us are lost. But whatis happiness? Is Happiness being having a2600:01:55.920 --> 00:02:04.040successful career, having a successful family, having a good job of out making2700:02:04.079 --> 00:02:13.680money, making others happy, servinghappiness means different things to different people,2800:02:15.120 --> 00:02:20.479but I guess what I want tojust sit and ass going, I want2900:02:20.479 --> 00:02:23.599to want to talk to you allabout, is what is happens to you.3000:02:23.599 --> 00:02:25.719You know. Are you truly happy? Are you at a place in3100:02:25.759 --> 00:02:30.319your life to wear when you lookat yourself in a mirror or you think3200:02:30.400 --> 00:02:36.479about your life and your overall placeof where you are right now, are3300:02:36.520 --> 00:02:38.800you content with it? Are you, you know, happy with that?3400:02:39.800 --> 00:02:44.639A lot of us are, alot of us are walking around in a3500:02:44.719 --> 00:02:47.520funk right now. A lot ofus are walking around in a cloud and3600:02:47.560 --> 00:02:53.680not even realizing it, and thereare a lot of different factors to that.3700:02:53.719 --> 00:03:00.080Now, what I'm talking about rightnow is a generalization. I don't3800:03:00.120 --> 00:03:07.520want anybody to think that I'm pickingon them or I mean their business or3900:03:07.560 --> 00:03:09.400anything like that, because I knowthat's not the case. Out of D4000:03:09.400 --> 00:03:13.800that ain't how I roll. Butthis is just a generalization of what I'm4100:03:13.840 --> 00:03:15.680seeing, what I'm thinking and just, you know, just a point of4200:03:15.719 --> 00:03:19.919view from my perspective. So y'alljust roll with me on that. All4300:03:20.000 --> 00:03:27.080right. But we've been in thispandemic a little more than two years right4400:03:27.120 --> 00:03:34.560now. We've never seen anything thathas shut the entire world down, the4500:03:34.719 --> 00:03:38.120entire world, not just a portionof the world or a country here and4600:03:38.159 --> 00:03:46.599there, but something that should dinethe entire world completely. At this time4700:03:46.680 --> 00:03:47.840two years ago, we didn't knowif we were coming, if we were4800:03:47.919 --> 00:03:53.159going, or whatever the case maybe. But I brought it up to4900:03:53.199 --> 00:03:55.360go here. We've gone through itand then do it a lot in this5000:03:55.400 --> 00:04:00.000pandemic. We're at a point wherewe were able to go anywhere to where5100:04:00.039 --> 00:04:03.960we had to stay home to wherewe didn't know if we were coming and5200:04:04.039 --> 00:04:13.439going, where. We started losingloved ones and friends and colleagues and associate's,5300:04:14.919 --> 00:04:17.920celebrities and so on, just backto back to back, and it5400:04:17.959 --> 00:04:25.439became disheartening, became dishrdening to usto see these numbers of people that are5500:04:25.439 --> 00:04:30.879affected by Covid nineteen and all thedifferent streams since we've been in this pandemic.5600:04:32.079 --> 00:04:34.920I know a lot of us areready to get back to the norm5700:04:35.000 --> 00:04:41.959of being able to go here andthere, to go out to breathe air5800:04:42.040 --> 00:04:45.800without a mask on, to beable to interact with each other without social5900:04:45.839 --> 00:04:49.279distancing, to be able to havea family get together, not worried about6000:04:49.319 --> 00:04:59.839anybody getting sick, to travel nightchest continentally, but outside of the US6100:04:59.920 --> 00:05:03.079as well, without any travel restrictionsor whatnot. A lot of us are6200:05:03.079 --> 00:05:06.279ready to get back to that.But for the fact of the matter,6300:05:06.399 --> 00:05:14.720we are in the current norm rightnow and a lot of us haven't been6400:05:14.720 --> 00:05:16.639there with a handled. A lotof us off just try to cope with6500:05:16.720 --> 00:05:20.839it the best way that we canand it's affecting a lot of us in6600:05:20.879 --> 00:05:25.399the many, many different ways.You know we've had to stay home,6700:05:25.399 --> 00:05:30.759we've had to be around our familyas a whole lot more. This pandemic6800:05:30.800 --> 00:05:34.199has affected us as a family unitas a whole. A lot of us6900:05:34.240 --> 00:05:39.040doing this pandemic health spouses, thatwe found out that our spouses didn't like7000:05:39.240 --> 00:05:43.839us or our family didn't like us, or friends didn't like us, or7100:05:43.920 --> 00:05:46.639something of that particular nature, becausewe've had to be around these people more7200:05:46.800 --> 00:05:50.519than we had would if we werebeing able to go out to go to7300:05:50.560 --> 00:05:55.560work or go to do something throughoutthe day. And that is the fact7400:05:55.560 --> 00:05:58.680of the matter, you know,as harsh as it may seem and harsh7500:05:58.720 --> 00:06:01.199as it may be, that's theace. But again, I mean I'm7600:06:01.279 --> 00:06:09.680running my way around the moon tocome back to say that we have been7700:06:09.720 --> 00:06:15.680affected by this pandemic mentally, emotionallyand a lot of ways, spiritually as7800:06:15.720 --> 00:06:20.439well, because we still it's theunknown, and it's an unknown that a7900:06:20.480 --> 00:06:26.120lot of US unsure of how todeal with or how to cope with.8000:06:26.839 --> 00:06:33.920So when we begin to move aboutand trying to have a normal life,8100:06:34.319 --> 00:06:36.720a lot of us are okay withit, but then there are a lot8200:06:36.720 --> 00:06:41.160of us that are a number ofus that are in a state of depression,8300:06:41.240 --> 00:06:46.240get in a state of mental awarenessthat's not that and not in a8400:06:46.279 --> 00:06:50.040good place. A lot of USknow a lot of us don't know it,8500:06:50.079 --> 00:06:57.920don't realize and it's affecting us.I've been seeing lately on social media8600:06:57.959 --> 00:07:01.439and in the news test a lotof suicide, a lot of people that8700:07:01.480 --> 00:07:08.040are taking their own lives because theycan't take where they are right now or8800:07:08.079 --> 00:07:14.720they've been dealing with mental wellness.Are Dinner with the state of depression for8900:07:14.720 --> 00:07:18.000such a period of time and thereat that, which they feel like,9000:07:18.040 --> 00:07:23.720there at they're with seeing. Sothat's why I ask, do you like9100:07:23.839 --> 00:07:27.360the person that you're looking in themirror? Do you like you? Do9200:07:27.560 --> 00:07:35.120you like the person that you lookat and you represent daily? We all9300:07:35.160 --> 00:07:40.959love each other, we all loveourselves, but a thing that I want9400:07:41.040 --> 00:07:44.000and need for us to do andto understand it, to look at,9500:07:44.160 --> 00:07:48.680is we need to like ourselves.It's hard to move on and to be9600:07:48.759 --> 00:07:56.160able to say we like or welove someone else when we don't even have9700:07:56.279 --> 00:08:03.360that self love. We need that. We need that. If you're at,9800:08:03.399 --> 00:08:05.639you're with seeing. Of you ina state of that, you don't9900:08:05.639 --> 00:08:09.399know if you're coming a going oryou feel not like yourself all the time,10000:08:09.480 --> 00:08:13.079you don't have to deal with it, you don't have to endure it10100:08:13.079 --> 00:08:18.680by yourself. Even if you don'tknow who, you think that you can10200:08:18.720 --> 00:08:20.480talk to. Of course, weknow we can talk to the Creator,10300:08:20.480 --> 00:08:24.279we can talk to the most highbecause everything starts and ends with him.10400:08:24.319 --> 00:08:28.519We know that take it to himfirst and ask him to guide you or10500:08:28.600 --> 00:08:33.000give you a clear path on whatyou need to do to come out of10600:08:33.039 --> 00:08:39.120that state and see. That's whyGod gave us each other. See,10700:08:39.159 --> 00:08:50.200there's no shame in seeking help ifyou are not in a good place emotionally10800:08:50.440 --> 00:08:56.039mentally, there's nothing wrong with it. It's a stigma that we've been growing10900:08:56.120 --> 00:09:01.600up. If you're from my generation, you're from generation x, the baby11000:09:01.600 --> 00:09:05.279boomers, generation x generation. Why? To some degree, that's how we11100:09:05.279 --> 00:09:13.639were raised, that you don't talkabout mental with mental health issues. That's11200:09:13.639 --> 00:09:18.960something you don't discuss. That's somethingthat was shunned. It's something that was11300:09:20.320 --> 00:09:26.000you crazy, but you're not.Get you're not. It's like I talked11400:09:26.000 --> 00:09:31.759about before. When we have issueswith our bodies, we go to the11500:09:31.799 --> 00:09:37.039doctor. When we have ear problems, we go see a ear, nose11600:09:37.080 --> 00:09:41.200and throat doctor. Issues going onwith our eyes, we're going to send11700:09:41.240 --> 00:09:46.919athhomologists. Issues go on on withour mouth and teeth, we could see11800:09:46.960 --> 00:09:50.919the dentist it shoes go on withour car, we will take it to11900:09:50.679 --> 00:09:56.200her, to the mechanic or tothe dealership. So why is it that12000:09:56.440 --> 00:10:01.840we can't? If they're issues goingon with our minds, we can't take12100:10:01.919 --> 00:10:07.639that to see someone, a therapistor counseling, to see someone to help12200:10:07.679 --> 00:10:11.919us out with that, to getit back on track? It's the same12300:10:11.919 --> 00:10:16.240thing with a spiritually, we're outof seining spiritually. Well, take it12400:10:16.279 --> 00:10:18.960to the Creator, because we knows, we know that he's going to definitely12500:10:18.960 --> 00:10:26.039get us back in line. Yeah, that's what's going to get US straight.12600:10:26.159 --> 00:10:33.480On that I saw something and thatthere was a stood that to me12700:10:33.519 --> 00:10:37.240that was profound, that you neverlet the sadness of your past and the12800:10:37.279 --> 00:10:43.519fear of your future ruined happiness ofyour present. And I'm going to read12900:10:43.559 --> 00:10:50.039that one more time. It saidnever let the sadness of your past and13000:10:50.200 --> 00:10:56.960the fear of your future ruined thehappiness of your present. Now let them13100:10:56.960 --> 00:11:03.080marinate for a second and you thinkabout that. You just think about that13200:11:03.240 --> 00:11:13.200for a minute. So often weas people tend to let others dictate where13300:11:13.200 --> 00:11:18.639we are right now based on thingswe may or may not have done in13400:11:18.679 --> 00:11:26.840our past, and those things affectUS mentally and emotionally as well. But13500:11:26.960 --> 00:11:31.639we can't do that. Those ofyou have known me know that I have13600:11:31.720 --> 00:11:35.679a saying, as saying that Ihold dear, and it's a saying that13700:11:35.960 --> 00:11:41.600I get from someone that was veryclose to be coming up, and I13800:11:41.639 --> 00:11:48.240hold on to that. We can'tallow our passed to dictate our present and13900:11:48.279 --> 00:11:56.720I owe our future. You can'tgo forward if, in life, if14000:11:56.759 --> 00:12:05.399you constantly looking in your rear viewmirror. That's why your windshield is bigger14100:12:07.200 --> 00:12:13.960than your rear view mirror, notthat that may rend and you think about14200:12:13.960 --> 00:12:26.000that also. Yeah, you see, Um, I've talked to you all14300:12:26.000 --> 00:12:28.759about this before and again, Ihave no problem talking about it one more14400:12:28.799 --> 00:12:35.639time. I even myself found myselfin a state of depression at the end14500:12:35.679 --> 00:12:41.159of two thousand and twenty. Ididn't realize it, but it took a14600:12:41.200 --> 00:12:46.360good friend of mine to point itout, and I didn't believe from I14700:12:46.120 --> 00:12:50.759just thought that they were just talkingbut it took a really good friend to14800:12:50.799 --> 00:12:54.240point it out and say, Oh, this unite right, you're not you.14900:12:56.440 --> 00:12:58.240I said, what do you mean? I'm not mean. It's like15000:13:00.320 --> 00:13:03.639you're not smiling or anything like younormally do. I'm like, I smile,15100:13:03.799 --> 00:13:07.039not joke, ah all the time. Like no, you do it,15200:13:09.200 --> 00:13:15.039but it's not in your eyes.Your eyes are blank, your eyes15300:13:15.080 --> 00:13:20.120are dull. There is no jowin your eyes. And I just thought15400:13:20.120 --> 00:13:22.519that person. I said, well, you know, you know what you15500:13:22.639 --> 00:13:26.960talking about. You let me justI'm not trying to hear that, but15600:13:28.120 --> 00:13:33.960it made me think. It mademe take a really hard look at myself,15700:13:35.200 --> 00:13:43.240my actions, in my behavior overthose few months after my mom passed,15800:13:45.200 --> 00:13:52.440and I realized the person has apoint. I wasn't and I didn't15900:13:52.480 --> 00:13:58.799even know it. I had noinkling, no idea of it or anything.16000:13:58.840 --> 00:14:03.639I knew something somewhere deep down inme that something wasn't right, but16100:14:03.240 --> 00:14:05.759I just look like hey, youknow, I'm still grieving my mom,16200:14:05.840 --> 00:14:11.279which I was, but it wassomething much deeper than that and I had16300:14:11.360 --> 00:14:16.960to I had to find a wayout because I was in a downward spiral16400:14:16.000 --> 00:14:22.559and didn't realize it any at allI was. I was in a downward16500:14:22.559 --> 00:14:31.559spiral and I think God that persontook the initiative and had the courage to16600:14:31.639 --> 00:14:35.960point that out to me. Letme know, hey, I care enough16700:14:35.000 --> 00:14:39.879about you to point this out,to let you know I see something's not16800:14:39.039 --> 00:14:43.440right. Oh, I need youto come back and needs you to to16900:14:43.080 --> 00:14:50.759get some help on that. Ireally appreciate that person for that. You17000:14:50.799 --> 00:14:54.039know who you are if you listeningright now, and I know that you17100:14:54.080 --> 00:15:01.639are one of our strongest listeners tothis podcast. Thank you. Thank you,17200:15:03.519 --> 00:15:09.440and I'm hoping this morning with thispodcast, that I can do the17300:15:09.480 --> 00:15:13.679same thing for someone, that Ican let them, listening to this and17400:15:13.799 --> 00:15:18.159listening to me tell my story,to me, listening to me speak on17500:15:18.200 --> 00:15:24.120this particular subject, that they willsee that, that they will come out17600:15:24.159 --> 00:15:31.600of that, that they will takethe initiative to do something for themselves.17700:15:37.159 --> 00:15:41.519I'm really hoping that I can havethat effect on someone, if not someone17800:15:41.559 --> 00:15:46.000listening, that maybe they may knowsomeone that may need to listen to this17900:15:46.159 --> 00:15:50.240or that they could go to andsay, Hey, I love you,18000:15:50.279 --> 00:15:54.399I see that you're not okay.What can I do to help? Hey,18100:15:54.480 --> 00:15:58.639let's go talk to somebody let merefer you to go talk to somebody18200:15:58.679 --> 00:16:04.000that maybe we can help get youin a good place. Or Hey,18300:16:04.120 --> 00:16:11.440let me pray with you and andsee if they almighty can help open a18400:16:11.519 --> 00:16:18.080path up so that you can moveforward and be okay. See, it's18500:16:18.120 --> 00:16:26.039easy for us to say that we'reokay even when we actually not. That's18600:16:26.080 --> 00:16:29.240so easy for us to do andwe have to get out of that,18700:16:29.360 --> 00:16:36.519people. We definitely have to getout of that. People. I am18800:16:36.559 --> 00:16:41.120so serious about this. I loveyou all and not care about your mental18900:16:41.159 --> 00:16:45.720will, being your physical will,being your emotional will, being your spiritual19000:16:45.720 --> 00:16:56.120wellbeing. I sincerely care about thatand if I can help one person,19100:16:57.279 --> 00:17:03.240then God has allowed me to dowhat he set out for me to do19200:17:03.840 --> 00:17:07.319and giving me this message and givingme this platform to be able to we19300:17:07.440 --> 00:17:14.079lay it on and to me beable to have the conviction of to being19400:17:14.160 --> 00:17:26.319obedient to what he meant for meto do. Yeah, yeah, I19500:17:26.359 --> 00:17:30.119know, I put high cast forit. Mad for the last few episodes19600:17:30.160 --> 00:17:33.200has been a little different than whatyou accustomed to listening to, but just19700:17:33.319 --> 00:17:36.640hanging out with us again. Youknow, I have a whole lot of19800:17:36.640 --> 00:17:41.839new equipment. We're still getting usedto write new hosting platform and we're still19900:17:41.920 --> 00:17:45.720learning all the ends and outside ofit and everything. So continue to bear20000:17:45.759 --> 00:17:48.519with us and everything. But we'restill going to push out a great outload20100:17:48.559 --> 00:17:53.960of content for you and we're kindof make this thing even better than it20200:17:55.039 --> 00:17:57.720was before. And I'm not doingit by myself. Remember, I'm doing20300:17:57.720 --> 00:18:00.480it all with you, doing itall with you, and we doing it20400:18:00.519 --> 00:18:07.319all for you, and that's whatwe do here currently under construction right right20500:18:11.480 --> 00:18:14.160the game. We have a Iknow what I said. The next episode20600:18:14.240 --> 00:18:18.279was begin but again, this isjust a bonus episode. It is just20700:18:18.400 --> 00:18:21.880a little extra. This is justa bonus episode for me to drop in20800:18:21.960 --> 00:18:25.960and, being obedient to what Godput in my mind and my heart,20900:18:26.039 --> 00:18:33.039to share with you all and tohopefully this one, this will touch home21000:18:33.079 --> 00:18:37.839for someone. It's will touch homefor someone in some shape form of fashion.21100:18:40.680 --> 00:18:44.839I saw something else that I wantto share with you all to again21200:18:44.920 --> 00:18:49.839and spoke volumes to me. Butit says it doesn't matter what's been written21300:18:49.880 --> 00:18:52.880in your story so far, it'show you feel up the rest of the21400:18:52.920 --> 00:19:00.240pages that counts. It doesn't matterwhat's written in your story so far,21500:19:00.599 --> 00:19:06.240it's how you fill up the restof the pages. That counts, and21600:19:06.279 --> 00:19:10.160I want you all to fill therest of those pages with a lot of21700:19:10.200 --> 00:19:15.160positivity, a lot of success,a lot of love, a lot of21800:19:15.279 --> 00:19:22.720encouragement, a lot of prayers,just a lot of getting things done.21900:19:23.599 --> 00:19:29.160That's what I wish for you.That's my prayer for you all. That's22000:19:29.200 --> 00:19:34.799what I'm hoping that we all beable to accomplish together. You know what22100:19:34.839 --> 00:19:45.079we do. We're community where familycurrent under construction. You know my model.22200:19:45.400 --> 00:19:53.160I'm sorry, you know I willmodel. All right, everybody,22300:19:55.720 --> 00:19:57.799I said I wasn't going to belong. This actually end up being a22400:19:57.799 --> 00:20:00.960little longer than I thought. Thisis actually almost the length of an next22500:20:02.039 --> 00:20:08.599tire full episode. I've curled outthe construction. So again you you'll get22600:20:08.599 --> 00:20:12.599the next episode here in a fewdays. Be on the lookout for it22700:20:14.640 --> 00:20:17.680again. You can catch us onall of your platforms. Where were you22800:20:17.759 --> 00:20:22.799listen to your podcast? Apple podcasts, Google podcast, spotify, overcast,22900:20:22.880 --> 00:20:26.680pocket, cash radio, public,stitcher, deezer. I heard radio and23000:20:26.839 --> 00:20:30.720many, many others, and somenew ones to come outs again. You23100:20:30.759 --> 00:20:37.160can listen to us on Google podcast, apple podcast, spotify, radio,23200:20:37.240 --> 00:20:45.599public, overcast, pocket, cast, cash box, deezer, Amazon,23300:20:45.839 --> 00:20:49.200I heard radio, many others.I know few do, as I added23400:20:49.279 --> 00:20:55.039in that weren't in the first time. I give you those, but they're23500:20:55.079 --> 00:21:00.039also available on those platforms as well. So, but anyway, everybody having23600:21:00.000 --> 00:21:04.000an amazing have a great morning thismorning. Get up, you know,23700:21:04.599 --> 00:21:07.119those you diding need to get upthe head out the work and I hope23800:21:07.119 --> 00:21:11.480you have an amazing have a greatday to day, getting the kids off23900:21:11.519 --> 00:21:17.079the school, that you make itto their destination safely and that you all24000:21:17.240 --> 00:21:22.440have an amazing, wonderful day today. I love you all with every24100:21:22.440 --> 00:21:27.200fiber of my being and I'll talkto you all soon. So you know24200:21:27.279 --> 00:21:33.160what name you know. I'm Modo. It takes a village to put this24300:21:33.160 --> 00:21:37.319thing together and you are my villageand we're going to do this thing together,24400:21:38.279 --> 00:21:44.279break by break, one step ata time. Currently under construction.24500:21:45.519 --> 00:21:51.119One error on my part. Idid say today was Wednesday. Today's Tuesday.24600:21:51.240 --> 00:21:56.559I apologize for that, but todayis Tuesday, March First, two24700:21:56.559 --> 00:22:00.160thousand and twenty two, and Italk to you all in a couple of24800:22:00.240 --> 00:22:03.200days. Yeah, I keep itlike right here for us here turned down.24900:22:03.200 --> 00:22:07.119The construction have an amazing day andI love you all, peace,